An Extra One for The Night

I tried uploading a pic but my computer wasn’t cooperating.

Oh well, I’ve been working hard on keeping my mind well fed. I read, I write, I watch videos and I talk to my kids about staying motivated. I remember hearing about motivational speaker Anthony Robbins and decided to watch a few videos on YouTube. I really like his style and have significantly improved my mood by just watching a few of these.

One of the main things he says in these videos is to get specific and ask life for exactly what you want and know why you are doing it. At times I find this difficult to do because it seems a whole lot easier to generalize and say, “I just want everything to be taken care of.” I realize now why vague requests like that aren’t usually effective. It’s because everyone’s view of “taken care of” is different. What we view as problems in America may be nothing compared to people in poorer countries.

If I lose my car insurance coverage that means absolutely nothing to a poor family who is losing a loved one due to illness in a location that doesn’t have the means to obtain necessary treatment.

I often try to keep things like that in mind whenever I feel like I have problems. Sometimes it helps but sometimes it doesn’t. I usually say that no one else’s problems are more important than yours. Even if you try to direct your thoughts elsewhere, when you are going through life’s dilemmas it can be distracting enough for you to lose that compassion or to worry about others.

So as I ponder upon Tony’s question about what I want and why, they are not easy questions to answer when you really sit down and think about them. You would think that the easy answer would be to have lots of money but that’s just a superficial request. Most people don’t realize that they honestly and truly DON’T WANT MONEY! They really want the things that money can buy.

When trying to come up with my wish list of wants I also take into consideration the fact that it really doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks about my dreams. I mean, they’re my dreams, so if they’re silly to you that’s just fine and dandy. This may also be another problem for some people because there may be times that you don’t want to write something down that sounds unrealistic or too fantasy-like.

With that being said, I’m going to attempt to write some of my wants and why-I-wants here on my blog in order to help me practice not worrying about the what-other-people-think part. Maybe I can kinda condition myself to the point where I can freely write down my dreams without having any fears (if possible). I will also attempt not to put a monetary amount on my wishes because, if there’s anything I’ve learned, it’s that money isn’t the only way of obtaining things.

So what I want to have is the following:

  • All of my bills to be paid on time every month (for obvious reasons)
  • Always have a fridge full of healthy food (not just whatever was affordable, which is usually very unhealthy)
  • Have a big enough house for me and my family (so we can live comfortably)
  • Have my house fully furnished (ditto)
  • Have a job that I love in which I can help others and feel fulfilled (one in which I can help others grow and I can grow as well)
  • Have enough time to enjoy activities with my children (so I don’t miss their childhood and live with regrets later like so many other struggling parents)
  • Be able to go on family trips several times a year, preferably at least once a month (to spend quality time with my family and build wonderful memories)
  • Take college courses on everything I’ve ever wanted to learn about (because I am very inquisitive and love school)
  • Be able to have our closets full of clothes, shoes and always have enough socks and underwear (so that there are never any toes coming out of socks or shoes again)
  • Be able to get haircuts every month (for once just be able to do this as often as I’d like and not once every 6 months – the boys really hate this)
  • Be able to have someone come and help clean the house (to free up my time for my family)
  • Never miss a school game or ceremony (to show my support)
  • Be able to help keep a smile on my mother’s face (I miss her so much)
  • Be able to make my father proud (I wish we had a better relationship)
  • To be a better friend (I’ve had some excellent friends in my life)
  • Be able to clear up my mind and my schedule enough to give back to others (I want to be an inspiration)

Well I’m sure the list can go on and on if I let it but I’m going to try to focus on these things with all of my mind, body and spirit because I have faith that all of my dreams will come true. Through the tears, sorrow, agony, pain, frustration, ups and downs, I KNOW that they will come true because I am DEMANDING it from life and life must answer.

The ball is in your court now life…..please respond.


Just Take It Easy

Good morning. I am writing today from my dirty dining room table (as a result from last night’s dessert – chocolate cake). It’s been raining for 2 days straight and I think I may be suffering from a bit of cabin fever. Don’t get me wrong, I love rainy days, I think they provide a serene setting for many an inspired session. However, the scene changes completely when it’s summer vacation and you’re stuck inside the house with 4 bored children, a hyperactive lab and an indifferent cat!

I checked my email this morning as I normally do and received one of many inspirational newsletters. I typically do this every morning and use it as a shield for my day to come. These inspirational tidbits usually give my mornings the jolt I need to stay positive and productive throughout my day; today, however, something different occurred.

After reading the inspirational newsletter there was a video attached promising to increase my income in X amount of time. So being that I am currently unemployed and seeking a way to earn some income online (because I am convinced that it can be done) I checked out the video. The video was very intriguing and sowed a seed of possibilities in my mind.

The video was explaining how to create an e-book in a few “simple” steps. I have had this desire to write lately so this definitely piqued my interest. Well after about an hour and a half of research, several YouTube videos, a gazillion rain drops and seemingly a bazillion (hopefully that’s more than a gazillion) “Mom!! What’s for breakfasts?!” I am suffering from a brain overload.

I know what I want for my life and the life of my kids. I want to teach them that you can achieve anything you want if you set your mind to it. I don’t want them to fall for the lies that have been implanted into our minds about how hard life is. Life is only as hard as you make it to be. I don’t deny that there are difficulties that we might endure (trust me I know about some) but life goes on, should you choose it to do so.

I realize that sometimes when I’m pushing too hard to make things happen, these “things” come to a grinding halt and although I know what to do, fear stops me from doing it. From deep within myself I know that I should just stay calm, take it easy for a bit, maybe pray or meditate for a little bit, then get back to working on my goal once I’m rejuvenated. It’s easier said than done at times because as soon as I want to step away my mind screams, “Noooooo! You have to work hard and search and search and search until you find an answer. You must find a way to support yourself and your children. You must find a way to generate an income without working 80 hours a week and never seeing your family. You must, you must, you MUST!!!!”

Then there’s that wee little voice again that says, “Sometimes you allow your thoughts to take over and therefore you can’t hear or see the answer right in front of you. I guarantee that stepping away for a moment will not completely undo any work you may have already done or squash any ideas you may have.

Just take it easy for a spell.” This post may be more for me than for anyone else.

Thanks for reading. Now off to make pancakes I go.