Shifting Gears Again

Hello again folks. Well, here goes my latest update: “30 Days of Yoga” is over. Not because it was too hard or I was bored or anything but because I’ve started school again and so have my children so I haven’t gotten the hang of our adjusted schedules as of yet. I may or may not take it back up and/or notify the community of it (just saying).

Anywho, I wanted to share the impact that a particular class I’m taking has had on me just in this first week. The class is Interpersonal Relationships. The official course description goes like this: This course provides a study of personal growth and development through student discussion of interpersonal relationships and utilization of vital life skills such as dynamic, pro-active communication skills (verbal and non-verbal); active listening and response skills; and conflict resolution techniques. This course explores how to manage feelings; interpret human behavior, feelings, and stress; and overcome barriers to communication.

So this class is basically “Life 101.”

I had this professor for my Literature class and I loved it/him! So he mentioned that he had this Interpersonal Relationships course and I was hooked. I am always trying to find ways to improve myself and I thought that this would be a great addition. There are lots of people who wouldn’t bother taking this class because it’s not a requirement but just from what I’ve learned so far, I think it should be. Our first night we watched a video by Dr. Leo Buscaglia. If you haven’t watched or read anything by him you should check out YouTube. I think this man was the epitome of an angel and that he must have blessed many people with his messages on love. You can truly see how he loved people (he had a nickname of Dr. Love).

I feel that our society doesn’t take enough time to emphasize the importance of educating ourselves on life situations and what it means to be human. I think that the focus has shifted so intensely to traditional education such as reading, writing and math that this world has simply become too busy to worry about  things like feelings, emotions and how we treat one another. We’ve separated ourselves and made our feelings seem unimportant. We’ve become so engrossed with nourishing our intellect that we’ve forgotten the importance of nurturing our souls. We don’t share our pain or struggle with others because we don’t want people to think that we’re too emotionally “high maintenance.” We only share our highs and mask our lows. Then we ostracize anyone who has these lows and tell them to get over it and pick themselves up instead of telling them how we have also hurt and how we can relate. (Sadly, I have been guilty of this as well.)

We’ve created this fake society of non-feeling people. Ones who don’t have time to listen to beautiful music, watch a play or just admire works of art. Humanities, music and art courses/classes are the first to go whenever there are school budget cuts. Before I even started this course I’ve been working on getting to know me as a person. For so many years I only wanted to focus on pleasing my partners and bending to their will in order to keep them happy. I’m still a work in progress but I feel much better about myself now and know that I don’t have to bend over backwards for anyone’s attention. I want to learn to love people without having my life depend on whether or not they love me back. I’ve been reading tons of books, watching lots of movies, and am trying everything I can to fill myself with all the knowledge I desire not only the knowledge required by our institutions. I think overall taking a course like this will help me become a better person which is my ultimate goal.

Hopefully, I can continue to share more of what I learn in this course and life in general. Thanks for reading.

Hope

To Cherish a Desire with AnticipationI know that I haven’t blogged since posting the prayer request for my best friend’s 2-year-old daughter Jasmine, who was diagnosed with cancer, but I was busy doing something that I shouldn’t have been doing. I was worrying about them. I know that doesn’t sound like it makes any sense but I’ll explain shortly.

My best friend and I have a bond that I have with no other friend. She is the only friend I have near me and I’ve known her longer than most. Like most “real friends” we’ve had lots of ups and downs throughout the nearly 10 years we’ve known each other but I believe those were the times that strengthened our friendship the most. I love my best friend dearly and it brings me great pain to know that she is suffering through this time with her daughter and I can’t be there as often as I’d like to be for her due to extenuating circumstances. I think about them 24/7 now, praying, meditating upon and visualizing Jazz feeling better and Pru having a smile on her face, seeing her baby well again.

The problem is this; though our hearts and prayers are on seeing her recovered, we all still worry. We always think the worst and I realize that kind of thinking is counterproductive. What kind of faith is it when we’re praying for the best but expecting the worst? I know that it’s only human nature to worry and be concerned for people in situations like this but I think that might be the pattern that makes the biggest difference.

I think at times that if we just have faith, stay strong and treat them like they will get better  instead of walking around sullen, dismal and practically mourning them while they are still living, people will think that we’re callous for not crying or showing feelings of distress. I’m not judging those of use who are sad because as I’ve mentioned I am saddened by this as well. I think we all should react in a way that we find the most comfort. So for me, I know that I can’t honestly say that I am hoping for the best with negative thoughts about her prognosis.

So again for me, I will focus on the positive and put all my will forth in manifesting a vision of her well, happy, playful and cured!

Titi loves you Jazz!

 

Here I go Again

Just Lovely, HappinessGood morning everyone! Here I go again. I woke up with this overwhelming feeling that something wonderful is going to happen.

It’s a typical, beautiful, sunny Florida Saturday morning. These are the days that I usually like to go garage sale hunting with my daughter and when I dream about the day my mom moves back down so all three of us can enjoy our mother-daughter days.

Unfortunately, the necessary funds for us to enjoy that luxury has not manifested itself yet. No worries, I’m confident that the money will appear to us as needed.

For now I’ll just enjoy this Saturday as much as possible. I’m supposed to have a free afternoon today, yay!!! What will I do?

Any suggestions?

 

My 1st Experience

Ok so I have to share my geeky moment because it made me sooooo excited! I was at the library with my BFF and her two daughters looking for some DVDs and usually whenever I’m with them I practice my signing because they are all genuinely interested in learning with me. So as I was signing I noticed this man watching me and I just figured that he was wondering what the heck I was doing or saying, however, he looked at me and asked me, in ASL, if I was Deaf.

At that moment I felt like screaming out, “No, but please talk to me/sign with me!” because I was so elated but then that wouldn’t have been a good idea for 2 reasons: 1 He’s Deaf and wouldn’t have heard me and 2 I was in the library and probably would’ve gotten kicked out. So I kept my composure and was able to have a conversation with him. I’m glad that the ridiculous grin, that I must have had on my face, didn’t scare him away but was very excited about telling him about me learning ASL and my wanting to become an interpreter for the Deaf.

It was a very nice experience; yet another one that I called into existence because I did want to be able to communicate directly with a Deaf person and it happened! This is the first conversation I’ve had with an actual Deaf person after starting my ASL class and I can’t wait to be fully certified but do look forward to the learning experience of it all.

Reset on Life

Good morning! I feel as if my life’s reset button has been pushed. I feel fully rejuvenated and refreshed today. I feel like I can conquer the world and all of my dreams have come true. It feels like if someone were to look upon my face today, I would look absolutely radiant and glowing.

Not sure what happened and I can’t really explain it but I just have a great feeling about today and know that great things are coming.

After my melt down over the pancakes yesterday, I felt like I needed some inspiration, something to bring back my natural umph. So I went to the library and started searching for a book/dvd that impacted me significantly a few years ago. That book/dvd is called The Secret. I am a firm believer in the law of attraction so I knew that getting some more of those positive images and thoughts in my mind would change my situation.

I didn’t find it at the library but with all of my intention and focus I said to myself, “It’s not here but I will find it or it will find me.” I knew, that I knew, that I knew it was coming to me. I just sent out that intention and went on about my day. So not much happened for the rest of the day. I went to class last night and my mood started to improve as is the usual case whenever I’m in school (I often say that I’m addicted to academia) and when I got home I had dinner, taught the kids some of the new signs I had learned, etc, etc.

Later on in the evening I noticed my kids were watching a movie on Netflix and it was just coming to an end so they asked me if we could watch a movie together. They gave me control over it so that I could choose for us. After flicking for what seemed like an eternity, guess what movie happened to be available to watch instantly? You got it! The Secret. I screamed out so loud and so fast that my kids looked at me like I was purple with ten heads as my dear friend Christine would have put it.

They didn’t want to see it with me but at that point I didn’t care because I felt like my mission was accomplished. I had attracted this movie to me!

Just to give you a little background, periodically I test myself on the power of my mind by strongly intending something and it always works. Somehow though I allow myself to get so caught up in my surroundings that I forget about that power. Today I will be focusing strongly on remaining positive and sending my intentions out for the life that I am choosing. I will go about my day knowing that it will all come to me and will work on helping anyone who needs an encouragement boost today.

I love how powerful my mind is and how I’ve come back to this point in time and reminded myself about this power. I’m here also to remind you of the power that you have. You are all-powerful beings. Use that power to shape your life however you want it to be. This is not a joke, a myth or just crazy talk. This is REAL. You don’t have to take my word for it, just try it! You won’t lose anything by putting all of your efforts into thinking positive. Try it for at least today and see what happens!

Many blessings to you all today!