I know that I haven’t blogged since posting the prayer request for my best friend’s 2-year-old daughter Jasmine, who was diagnosed with cancer, but I was busy doing something that I shouldn’t have been doing. I was worrying about them. I know that doesn’t sound like it makes any sense but I’ll explain shortly.
My best friend and I have a bond that I have with no other friend. She is the only friend I have near me and I’ve known her longer than most. Like most “real friends” we’ve had lots of ups and downs throughout the nearly 10 years we’ve known each other but I believe those were the times that strengthened our friendship the most. I love my best friend dearly and it brings me great pain to know that she is suffering through this time with her daughter and I can’t be there as often as I’d like to be for her due to extenuating circumstances. I think about them 24/7 now, praying, meditating upon and visualizing Jazz feeling better and Pru having a smile on her face, seeing her baby well again.
The problem is this; though our hearts and prayers are on seeing her recovered, we all still worry. We always think the worst and I realize that kind of thinking is counterproductive. What kind of faith is it when we’re praying for the best but expecting the worst? I know that it’s only human nature to worry and be concerned for people in situations like this but I think that might be the pattern that makes the biggest difference.
I think at times that if we just have faith, stay strong and treat them like they will get better instead of walking around sullen, dismal and practically mourning them while they are still living, people will think that we’re callous for not crying or showing feelings of distress. I’m not judging those of use who are sad because as I’ve mentioned I am saddened by this as well. I think we all should react in a way that we find the most comfort. So for me, I know that I can’t honestly say that I am hoping for the best with negative thoughts about her prognosis.
So again for me, I will focus on the positive and put all my will forth in manifesting a vision of her well, happy, playful and cured!
Titi loves you Jazz!