Deep Thought

I’ve been thinking about how I try to help others by trying to encourage positivity. This skill was not one I was born with. It was one I acquired through life experiences and great friendships. I know that not everyone or every situation requires that kind of advice but I think, at times, maybe that’s the only way I can help.

I do want to break some things down though because I know that lots of people who teach about positivity or kindness even, don’t provide that sense of authenticity. I mean, I remember hearing and reading lots of  movies or books on positivity and aspiring to live my daily life as a super positive person but then feeling like crap if I woke up one day feeling blah. Or if I got aggravated by something the kids were doing and I yelled at them. Or if I was seeing the silver lining around a particular situation and then let it bring me down. I almost felt like I was failing at being positive. I was upset at myself for having natural feelings.

What I think a lot of people don’t tell you is that it’s ok to have a breakdown every once and awhile. There are times that I feel bad for feeling or acting a certain way but then I remind myself that it’s ok, these feelings are normal and my meltdowns are just a component of who I am but they are not here to dominate me, they’re here to allow me to express myself in any way I see fit. So I guess what I’m saying is that positive thinking should be incorporated into everyone’s life as a bonus and as a way to help us get through any tough times but it’s not meant for us to be slaves to it either.

I’m going through a very tough time right now and though I am positive my situation will improve it doesn’t stop me from worrying a little. It’s actually kind of confusing sometimes, knowing that everything is going to work out yet worrying about the “what if it doesn’t?” part. Well I’m rambling on again but I really needed to let these thoughts out of my head and maybe now that their out of there I can worry a little less.

Thanks for reading.